January 9, Fear
Last week Deb had her yearly mammogram. A nurse called and said they saw something they didn't like and wanted Deb to come back for a little further examination. I've always said, "don't think the worst until you know the worst" and I told Deb the same thing. It wasn't until she called me today (with great concern in her voice) and told me they were now going to do an ultra sound because something didn't look right that I began thinking the worst. After this she was placed in a room by herself while waiting for the doctor. You need to realize we've lost my Mom & Dad and Deb's Dad all to cancer.
While in this waiting room Deb called with obvious fear in her voice. I was in Anderson and she was in Spartanburg. There was nothing I could do but pray for God to calm her nerves and give her a peace. After I prayed I began having thoughts and none of them were good. Fear was setting in and its during these times we allow our thoughts to take over. I couldn't think of anything but the worst.
Isn't it amazing how fear can do this to us? We tell God the Father we'll rely on Him and trust in Him no matter what, until it happens to us. As I was driving home thinking all of these bad thoughts I repented and asked God to calm my spirit and that I did trust Him with everything, even my precious wife. Did I instantly quit worrying? NO, but I was confident that God was still in complete and total control.
About an hour later Deb called back and instantly I knew things were ok by her tone. There was nothing wrong that wasn't common.
I learned several things through this experience:
1. Need to listen to my own advice, "don't think the worst until you know the worst."
2. Fear can be used to help us and hurt us.
3. I love my wife very, very much even if I did already know thist!
4. Fear can make us doubt.
Some other thoughts:
* Today at Newspring was incredible.
* Perry talked about vision and since we're doing a vision series it ht home.
* Can't wait until Sunday.
* Florida just won the National Championship. Great game.
* Perry asked us what our top fears were today. Really made me think and then all this today. Talk about those fears next week.
* Its midnight and way past my bed time
While in this waiting room Deb called with obvious fear in her voice. I was in Anderson and she was in Spartanburg. There was nothing I could do but pray for God to calm her nerves and give her a peace. After I prayed I began having thoughts and none of them were good. Fear was setting in and its during these times we allow our thoughts to take over. I couldn't think of anything but the worst.
Isn't it amazing how fear can do this to us? We tell God the Father we'll rely on Him and trust in Him no matter what, until it happens to us. As I was driving home thinking all of these bad thoughts I repented and asked God to calm my spirit and that I did trust Him with everything, even my precious wife. Did I instantly quit worrying? NO, but I was confident that God was still in complete and total control.
About an hour later Deb called back and instantly I knew things were ok by her tone. There was nothing wrong that wasn't common.
I learned several things through this experience:
1. Need to listen to my own advice, "don't think the worst until you know the worst."
2. Fear can be used to help us and hurt us.
3. I love my wife very, very much even if I did already know thist!
4. Fear can make us doubt.
Some other thoughts:
* Today at Newspring was incredible.
* Perry talked about vision and since we're doing a vision series it ht home.
* Can't wait until Sunday.
* Florida just won the National Championship. Great game.
* Perry asked us what our top fears were today. Really made me think and then all this today. Talk about those fears next week.
* Its midnight and way past my bed time
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